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Ep 7 - Part 1: Dorian Gray-t Expectations - Oscar Wilde's wild ride

Episode Summary

Today, we are re-visiting the story of Oscar Wilde and his relationship with Lord Alfred Douglas. In a time when it was even more harrowing being a gay person (than, like, places in the US today), Oscar Wilde's sexual orientation was an open secret. When his boyfriend's dad got the law involved, things got serious. Join us for this fascinating trip into LGBTQ history! Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/doomedtofailpod/   Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/doomedtofailpod   Youtube:  https://www.youtube.com/@doomedtofailpod  TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@doomed.to.fail.pod  Email: doomedtofailpod@gmail.com

Episode Notes

Today, we are re-visiting the story of Oscar Wilde and his relationship with Lord Alfred Douglas. In a time when it was even more harrowing being a gay person (than, like, places in the US today), Oscar Wilde's sexual orientation was an open secret. When his boyfriend's dad got the law involved, things got serious.  

 

Join us for this fascinating trip into LGBTQ history!

 

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Episode Transcription

Hi Friends! Our transcripts aren't perfect, but I wanted to make sure you had something - if you'd like an edited transcript, I'd be happy to prioritize one for you - please email doomedtofailpod@gmail.com - Thanks! - Taylor

 

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welcome to Doom to fail the podcast where we switch up the premise of the show unexpectedly as is what I'll be

doing later today I'm far is joined here by my co-host Taylor hi Taylor hello how are you doing

today I'm good how are you I'm well are we recording at the normal time we are

it is morning it's very bright in your office that's delightful I am at at work

this week I was like 8 30 meetings are really rough for me because I don't like the mornings like

the mornings are I hate them I will never wake up early but I do get up early for this so I guess it's just

perspective and I did not change the timing on this at all or the day or anything so

kudos to me um congratulations thank you so let's go ahead and start by discussing what you

would like to be drinking today or will be drinking cool so I'll I know for your story I don't know what

it is yet but for your story we'll be reminding everybody to hydrate and just drinking water so make sure to have

heavier water I have my water in my coffee for as fast as water in his diet coke so we're ready to go and then for

my story that I'll jump into first is I have a quote from one of our one of our

subjects or participants or whatever and it is alcohol taken in sufficient quantities May produce all the effects

of drunkenness so who would have thought a posh chickens and drinks is what we're uh is

the drink in general because today I'm going to talk about Oscar Wilde and his boyfriend Lord Alfred Douglas who goes

by the name bozie so hopefully about their story I do not know very much about Oscar Wilde so if you ask me about

movies that he was in I probably won't know them well he was in no movies because he's a playwright from the 1800s

I mean like movies about him obviously okay great yeah I knew I knew that much

at least um we'll get to it I think there's some

that you might recognize if maybe you haven't read or seen so we'll get there I did I did a lot of research this week

just like watching movies like you said and listening to some podcasts I have I

watched a documentary called The Importance of Being Oscar from the BBC I watched the film wild it's from

things from the 90s about Oscar Wilde Stephen Fry plays him and Jude Law

actually plays Lord Alfred Douglas and this is the second movie that we've brought up where Jude Law plays like the

young gay lover of an older man which also did in Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil oh okay so that was Jude

Law's kind of genre you know 20 years ago or so and I also listened to a great Oxford lecture that

I found it's by a woman named Dr sauce Altis her name's SOS I have no idea how

to pronounce that but Oxford University Records their lectures you can listen to them as a podcast so

the audio was pretty terrible because I think it was like just a microphone like pinned to her while she was

actually doing her class and one of the episodes I think she had like a broach on or something you could like hear it

hitting the throat and someone was coughing the entire time so you're like oh my God go home do not call for this

entire lecture but still it was delightful and it was I learned a lot so so how many movies in books and podcasts

in total were part of your research I watched two movies and listened to you

about five hours of a podcast thorough thank you very thorough yes

it's been it's been a very a very Posh week for me I know you

listen to Oxford lectures like it's I mean you're like elevating us a little bit yeah it's been difficult not to

speak in an English accent to my family and friends so I will try to not do that as well here but I've been listening to

it a lot you don't wanna you don't want to try to do the whole section your section in a British accent

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appeals to me the way that the Eleanor Roosevelt story did when we talk about living a full life and really living the

[ __ ] out of your life in the story you know Oscar Wilde lived a rich life I say

the word velvet a lot he it reminds me of this idea of like

waking up late because I hate the mornings and being an artist and throwing a fit and writing all your feelings and then eating a great meal

and staying up late drinking and talking and smoking and then yelling out art and the meaning of life and then doing it

all again so just like this idea that you're just like in this world of just like artists and art and you're writing

and you're writing poetry and you're writing these plays and things like that and it seems like you know really fun to

be able to choose what you want to do even though like you did have obviously working as a writer and I also feel like

I have context to what this looks like because we're in like the late 1800s and like the Victorian era and I know what

that looks like like that's kind of an aesthetic that I like I want to paint all my walls black and like you know

have that um have that look you know going on in my own home so something that I can

really see and I feel like that I couldn't really see everything in the Taj Mahal story because I just like

don't know what day-to-day life is like was like then but I feel like I know what day-to-day life was for this

so I feel like it's easier for me to talk about if that makes sense I keep picturing Hogwarts yeah libraries with

like Rich Oak and stuff like that exactly that you can totally picture Hogwarts or doing this so it's very Posh

everything I'm talking about is very very Posh so I'm going to talk about the people some of the stories they told some of

the things that they wrote and then the bad things that happened to them so there are a couple of bad things do

happen to people in this story so Oscar Wilde was born and this is actually where I thought maybe I could flip into

an Irish accent but I'm not maybe I maybe won't but his name was Oscar fenegal oh fluttery Wills Wilde oh I

don't know it's a lot it's very Irish he was born in Dublin on the 16th of October 1854. his parents were super

interested in keeping him educated he had a like a tutor until he was

you know pretty grown and then he went to Trinity College in Dublin and then he

went to Oxford so to cut to the Chase and kind of spoil the story

another quote from Oscar Wilde is the two great turning points in my life were when my father sent me to Oxford and

when Society sent me to prison so it's a big turning point in his life when he gets to go go over to England go

to Oxford he's a little bit of an outcast in the UK because he's Irish but he gets along and he's fine while in

school at Oxford and Trinity College he's already Making Waves as a poet so he was known for being lavish and like

the right way a lot of velvet decorating his rooms with peacock feathers he held lavish parties he dated a woman who

ended up leaving him for Bram Stoker which is which is fun that's pretty I mean if you're gonna get

left for anyone that's okay I could live with that I know so kind of

delightful and so he's like here's what I'm thinking and this is just me you're trying to learn

in seven hours this week where people study their whole lives but he's like my my impression of Oscar Wilde is that he

is half Posh so he's so this time when he's in college and the rest of his life he's going to be part of like the

poshest the most fancy part of the British society and that's what all his plays are about his play is in poetry

are funny and Posh people thought they were funny too so it was like making fun of them without them knowing and I think

that is the key to like ingraining yourself into like a really rich Posh group he can get in and use their things

and go to their summer houses and take the clever things but leave the boring ones and I think that's kind of

something that he was able to do does that make sense yeah yeah like you're kind of describing

Philip Seymour Hoffman and the oh God I forgot his name Truman uh Truman Capote movie that he

did where he just kind of can find his way to mingle in different High culture and counterculture groups

and fit in wherever he wants to yeah I would I would just say I would say that Oscar Wilde's a little more

like personable than German Capote but yes it's like the same idea that makes sense and you know I I definitely feel

this way too like I have a couple I know people in my life who are like very You Know Rich and you know went to Harvard

and you know all that and I don't really fit them with them you can tell that I don't fit in with them even though I like try to and I'm not like any worse

than they are I just isn't the same and I feel like I can tell when someone's like a real old money that like we're

different yeah yeah I would imagine if we were to hang out with the Kennedys we'd stick it

out exactly they'd know yeah so exactly but he's he's in there he's already you

know writing and he's making money and he kind of already

becomes a caricature of himself there's a lot of cartoons like comics of him like drawings and the papers and things

which is I don't I guess because they weren't like publishing photographs so

in the paper so they used to draw people but a lot of like exaggerated cartoons of him he had this like long brown hair

he was very tall and he had this like his full lips and his long face and so he's easy to draw you know into like uh

characterize are you looking him up yeah I am okay good

it looks like Snape a little bit wow you're real going full Hogwarts I like it so there's a Tiffany

pair the new the new Hogwarts game was just released yesterday

um it's called or sorry the Harry Potter game it's called Hogwarts Legacy and I've been watching the gameplay and I'm

like um I'm definitely gonna get it um it just hasn't dropped for Xbox one yet so I don't know I'll probably cut this

out because it's totally relevant to anything but that's why I'm thinking about Harry Potter so much no totally yeah I heard about it too I heard that

was coming out so I hope it's fun it sounds fun so yeah so you can continue to think accounts like Snape a little

Kinder I imagine okay Kinder eyes than Snape's eyes but looks a little bit like stay with that hair and there's already

you know a play that's written that's sort of a satire of him and he gets invited to come to America to promote it

so he's like part of the Zeitgeist so he's he travels to America to promote this play and then ends up going back to

back to the UK and just continues to be a writer okay anyway during this time

after college while he's like in his 20s he marries a woman named Constance Lloyd in 1884. and they have two sons and he

continues to like write and hang out so it sounds like him and Constance loved each other you know they had their two

kids they took good care of them um they took good care of each other unfortunately

the problem with their marriage was that Oscar Wilde is gay he was gay he wasn't

um going to be you know happy in a marriage because to a woman because he was a gay man and so he started but she

knew right like she knew that she was the beard no she knew she like she found out later

obviously but immediately I don't think that she knew that wasn't like the deal right okay yeah it wasn't like let's get

married and you know you can do whatever you want it was like let's get married because I love you and let's have a family and then he just couldn't

continue that yep that's rough yeah so a couple friends of his one friend that

will mentioned briefly is a friend named Robbie Ross and he was played by Michael Sheen in the movie in the Wild movie and

he did a great job and this was his first physical relationship with a man so he's someone who will be in his life

kind of on and off forever but he did he does have a couple of relationships with men sort of to start but Robbie Ross was

his first and he was a Canadian man who was in the UK he inherited a lot of money and so just was able to like kind

of hang out and and be a part of Oscar Wilde's life so I know I did an agenda at the beginning of

this where whatever laid out what we were going to talk about but I want to talk about Oscar's work and him as like a man in

this time and in general so some of the things that are famous that you may have heard of is The Importance of Being

Earnest have you seen that toward that is that a a book or no no I haven't

um a book is the Portrait of Dorian Gray do you remember that one that I do yeah okay so um there's that he did a couple

other I mean he did a ton of stuff but some of the other famous ones are lady woodiners fan Salome and a woman of no

importance those are some of the big ones the Portrait of Dorian Gray if you you know read through it with a

you know a lens you can see it as like a a homosexual love story between an older

man and a younger man so in The Portrait of Dorian Gray This Man paints a painting of Dorian Gray and the painting

continues to get older and more decrypt as Dorian does you know bad things in

lives his life but he doesn't get older so that's the basic of that story so some of the themes from Oscar Wilde's

work and this is what I was getting from that lecture that Oxford lecture is not judging people because the theme of the

time was judging Fallen women everyone loved that you know this woman is pregnant out of wedlock this woman you

know is leaving her husband and people loved to see those kind of like melodramatic tragedies on stage and he

really wanted to flip it and say you know judgments are a form of control I think we've talked about that before

with like marriage being a form of control and things like that so judging women in or anyone in that way is a way

of controlling them and so he wants to challenge that in his work so in his work one thing you're the characters do

that they're allowed to do is change and a big tenet of Oscar Wilde's life is you

can be something different in each moment and that's okay and people don't let people judge you

because you're constantly changing and constantly evolving and one of his things that he also said was the most

fundamental human right is to be an individual so that means there's no truth to who you are because you're

always changing but that's also a good thing that's part of the tenant it's very cool I like them yeah I want to

think about Oscar Wilde is like he's like Indulgence he's you know writing this plays he gets kind of fat he spends

his money on fancy things so that's fun good for him and this is a time where

being gay is illegal so like we talked about before

there's always been gay people and it goes you know in and out of legality but right now it's actually illegal to be

gay in the UK and in a more if I was talking about this for like days and days I would talk more about there's

like these like young men sex workers called rent boys and it's exactly what

you sound like you know you can you know get do that in in the movie Wild one of them is played by Orlando Bloom

he's in there for like four seconds it was his first movie but he just kind of like Winks it at Oscar Wilde and like walks away so it's a little like

flirtation thing quite cute um so their secret places where gay men to get

together if you want to know if you want to be a gay man it's easy because it's plenty it's available it's just like not

you know technically allowed and so that means a lot of challenges for Oscar Wilde and people at this time a lot of

persecution a lot of stigma and he you know used his writing to start to

challenge some of those societal norms and um express love like in different ways

so that's a little bit about his writing about like who he is as a person so we're still in Hogwarts he looks like Snape

very Lush very Posh so just to kind of um tie up constants so poor Constance

she does die later in the story so we won't come back to her but she but their

relationship isn't the one that was doomed to fail like even though it was like that's what I'm talking about in the story but like of course that was

never gonna work out because he was gay they never got divorced but she did end up passing away really young she was

only 40. she probably had Ms but they didn't know what that was then so she just had you know a lot of pain and they

did all these surgeries to figure it out like surgery in 1890 was like open it up and

around and like see what's going on in there so it wasn't great and she died from complications of one of those

surgeries um unfortunately when she was pretty young because she was 40 and I'm 40 so I'm saying that's young to die so this

is like we're still like mid 1800s right late 1800s this whole thing is like the

late 1800s yeah yeah so surgery is still basically Butchery yeah like no one's

washing their hands there's you know blood everywhere yeah exactly the guy's probably also a butcher

does that too it's in the back yeah it's a barber yeah that sounds like a

terrible way to go so poor thing but here's the relationship that was doomed to fail so this is his Oscar Wilde Oscar

Wilde's relationship with Lord Alfred Douglas who goes by Bose and bozie is a

nicknaming out when he was a kid and it's from his mom calling him Boise because he was a boy and it turned into

like Bosey and he was like his mom's Golden Child which I get because I call

miles My Greatest Story my favorite boy and like stuff like that all the time so I get it I don't know if that's fair so

in 1891 Wilde meets him and Boise himself was born in 1870 so time to do

some math when they meet in 1891 um bozie is 21 and Oscar is 37. so this

is something that I looked up how to tactfully addressed because I know that we like those age gaps are a big thing

that we talk about a lot so there's a thing that wild talks about that there's a great love between an older man and a

younger man that's like ancient like Plato and Shakespeare was talking about it so that's like a big thing that he

you know talks about love between you know different types of people and so I'm not going to get into that any more

than that it's not illegal so fine so the age it feels different for some

reason I know I think so too but I'm like I don't know why and I don't know why either I might just make us [ __ ] I don't

know maybe yeah it's a male relationship thing or it

could be the time in which the relationship I don't know maybe we are [ __ ] yeah I

think I don't know it could be that I really don't know but that's that that's what it is what it is it's not illegal the age Gap but you know being gay is

illegal at this time so there's you know that happening with the relationship so when they meet it's very

passionate Bose introduces him to the idea of rent boys so like they like you know see other people they like go to

sex parties and kind of giving in to your kind of sexual desire and Boise's from a very Posh line of you know minor

royalty and his dad's is the Marquess of Queensbury which is a very fancy name for your dad to have and his family

history includes lots of people dying by Suicide and lots of people converting to Catholicism so they're like not mentally

stable in in his family and so right now Boise is the Golden Boy around town

their fair is very passionate there's lots of love letters and poems um both he's a writer as well but not as

good he's just like a rich guy who's a writer so he's in there and it sounds

like Oscar was more involved in the relationship and bossy loves him but it's also like never really going to commit to him

meanwhile so they kind of like they kind of live together in like a Country House in different places and you know Oscar

is still married but he doesn't expenses all the time with Bosie and bozi's Dad the Marquess of Queensbury and Marcus's

m-a-r-q-u-e-s-s which is a British nobleman ranking above an Earl and below

a Duke I still don't know what that means I know whatever so he's like minor minor

whatever and so the Marquess of Queensbury is pissed that there that he sees his son in this relationship with

Oscar Wilde and he's suspicious that they're more than friends and he's just like really really mad and so he's

kind of following us on around yelling at him telling him that he cannot be in this relationship everyone's denying it

and yelling and then he goes he tries to get into this club to like Heckle Oscar Wilde and bozie because he knows that

they're there and he doesn't get let in but he leaves a calling card so he you know like calling card is like

you know your name and then you leave a note or whatever so this is spelled spelled incorrectly but he writes on his

calling card for Oscar Wilde posing somdomite so we spell sound am I wrong

but essentially he's saying like give this to the gay man in there it's Oscar Wilde I know he's gay and giving it to

the guards and instead of wild being like this man is a crazy person who cares he sues him for

libel so Oscar Wilde sues his boyfriend's dad for libel for calling him gay publicly so he really didn't

need to do that but he like you know they ended up going to trial so it goes to trial on April 3rd 1895 and he is

framed with an older man who Grooms younger men and eventually wild drops

his libel claim because they're like what are you talking about we have all these Witnesses like so many people know

you're gay so they're yeah it's only it's only a libel or slander if it's not true right so why put yourself out there

that seems like a real uh it's a bad move yeah it was a bad move yeah he didn't need to do that so he

did that and then you know he has to he loses all of his money because he has to like pay all his court fees and all

these things and his friends are like you should leave like just leave the UK leave for a few years go to Paris like

whatever like just get out of here for a little bit but he doesn't want to he wants to say his sons are there like he doesn't want

to leave yet and he was like I made my bed like I need to I need to stay here so

now everyone knows that he's now everyone not just the people in the know know that he is gay and so he gets

charged with gross indecency which is part of the criminal law Amendment Act of 1885 which is an act to make further

provision for the protection of women and girls the suppression of Brothers brothels and other purposes so it's

basically like the don't be gay or anything that people would think as I don't know

sleazy law yeah yeah and and it's you know he's still you know he's always

possible love him you know but they also are the ones who are like making these laws so it's pretty you know hypocritical for them to be like you

know you're gonna like you have to you know be charged for this even though we like adore you and

don't really care so he does get charged he sentenced to two years of

hard labor so he goes to like a hard labor prison and it's awful and he you

know goes there and wise in prison his mom passes away all the sad stuff happens he's not allowed to write

um like plays or poetry or anything but he can write letters so he writes this like really really long letter to Bosey

called de profundus which is from the depths and it's half a love letter to him and half a letter to the way that he

lived his entire life so it's a little bit of like it's like its own kind of Novella and it's saying that gets published after after he dies that's

awful you know especially going to prison for for being gay like that's not not okay and even though we had all of

that it is also worth noting that you know he inspired people to think differently about love

kind of ongoing he became kind of a caricature of a gay man which probably isn't what he wanted but at least you

know he's sort of at the Forefront of getting it out there at this time and you know what I was thinking was I know

that none of this is actually true but in theory jail is supposed to be rehabilitative

right so was the Assumption two years is how long it takes to not be gay anymore

or like was he was it just supposed to be like a constant recurring theme of just throwing someone in jail for being

gay yeah I don't know if they were like thinking about like conversion therapy you know I think they

were just like two years of hard labor for that I don't think there was like a on staff

psychiatrist I doubt there was a doctor you know like it was just not great so

he does go out of prison and he goes to Italy and finds bozie there they spend a

few months together but Oscar's very weak and I don't think posie wants to deal with it like he just doesn't want

to take care of him in the movie they haven't seen even before this where Oscar is like just has the flu and bozie doesn't want to take care of him because

he's kind of a kind of a bride and he'll kill him yeah he's a kid exactly so

they they break up Oscar kind of lives in Paris for the rest of his life he dies on November 30th 1900 at the age of

46. so he dies of meningitis and he's buried in Paris bozie actually lives

until 1945. so he lives for you know 45 more years he converts to Catholicism

gets married and has a kid he just kind of sucks like he I think he's just kind of doing whatever

yeah you know so can I throw out a casting idea for Rosie yeah Ryan Felipe

yeah yeah totally is that I mean my favorite is just like Jude Law in the 90s actually right they do kind of look

the same so yes it would have been that big of a difference that's exactly right I think they I think people got them confused all the time

but maybe they're I know Ryan Felipe and Reese Witherspoon's son is like 20 now

maybe he can do it there you go if they do it again and then just to so that that's the sad

story that's Oscar and the man he loved and the Man's father who sent him to jail and all these things

um some news homosexuality was decriminalized in England and Wales in 1967.

so no longer legal and in 2017 Oscar Wilde was among an estimated 50 000 men

who were pardoned for homosexual acts that were no longer considered offenses under the policing and crime Act of

2017. so they that law essentially put 50 000 men in

jail and you know 100 years later they all get pardoned because it's no longer criminal you said 67 yeah 1967. that's

yeah so that's a little bit ahead of the curve so the U.S The Stonewall Uprising happened in 69.

it's good for them that's it that's it that's all I got hey

so question for you it like having done the research you did and the reading that you did if you were to point to a

specific thing to look at or read or whatever to basically get the condensed

version of Oscar Wilde that's like a human as a philosopher I think maybe even

um what would you what would you point to I already know the story of Dorian Gray just curious like if there's anything else out there I mean I would

honestly watch the movie The Wild movie um it's on Amazon you could rent it the

one with Jude Law it's pretty good and it's w-i-l-d-e and I'll put a link in

the thing but I thought I did a great job I'm sorry just kind of and Stephen Fry the actor did a great job playing

him he really looks like him you just like kind of get this idea that he's like this like big presence you know around town and did

you see the like unfortunate there are also you know in the movie and in real life there were other men who

loved Oscar like that like Robbie Ross who would have just been you know in

love with him his whole life but he fell for the like Golden Boy around town and

that was his downfall and one of the um the pictures of them together the it links to an article it

says Lord Alfred Douglas the man who destroyed Oscar Wilde so not a good way to be remembered I guess

no no he didn't it was like I I don't even know if it was really his fault

much as it was his dad's fault for like bringing it up and like making it a big thing and they could have just had like

a rocky passionate love affair their whole lives but it had Unfortunately they got the court involved and I don't

know why um Oscar Wilde would be like that's libel why you'd even like stir the pot

like that yeah just let it die yeah just be like okay that guy's not C spelled it wrong like he doesn't know he's talking

about and then move on rather than you know going to court and having you know

Maids be like he's always sneaking dudes up to his room things like that you're like why why bring it up but apparently

uh Alfred Douglas was also quote unquote a virulent virulent racist

it doesn't come up with a movie but Color Me surprised because probably that makes sense

um great awesome well thank you for sharing I am I'm gonna I'm gonna give that movie

a whirl I I've always heard the name Oscar Wilde because I consume a lot of

the media that he had some influence on um it never got deep into like who he was as a person but he sounds pretty

fascinating as a philosopher in particular yeah um so I'm going to segue into the true

Prime side of the equation for today like I said my drink today is watered has absolutely nothing to do with the

story it has to do with the fact that I was at a work conference all last week in Florida and I just need to spend this

weekend in the next hydrating um so that's the idea uh so this whole

time we've been looking at relationships that were doomed to fail and knowingly or not I've kind of couched that and

actually you kind of have to Taylor within the framework of romantic relationships

but there are probably thousands of stories of friendships that were also doomed to fail friendships that probably

should have been avoided all along it's funny as we discussed the premise of the show and how sometimes the universe puts

two people together at the exact same time and I started researching the researching this particular episode and

framed it more as being put together the exact wrong time like a pairing that you should have the the universe could have

avoided and done without yeah ooh okay I know I'm getting I'm getting again like the premise is like a little bit

Shifty but it's still kind of like yeah you really really put these two together like instead of the beginning we have we

have very it's very loose premise exactly we're just telling stories where is he going over here thanks for coming

okay um so one thing that I thought of when I was

looking into like this thing that I'm going to talk about today was it seems that in non-romantic relationships in

particular that end in tragedy there's at the very least either a power imbalance between the parties or

feedback loop that leads to a tragedy and a lot of times a power imbalance with these kinds of friendships are

based on one's mental acuity versus the others because then I can't remember the

I should have done the research on this before I started talking um what's the book where the guy hugs a

bunny too hard and then yeah um it's not groups of Wrath is it groups

of Wrath no it's um a hug Of Mice and Men Of Mice and Men

like there's a great example of you know two individuals with slightly different mental acuity and it was obviously I was

like that's what I started thinking about and when I started going through the research of this I thought about the

probably the single most impactful friendship gone wrong from our childhood Taylor in real life not Of Mice and Men

but in real life can you think of what I'm thinking about the most impactful one of our generation the most

impeccable friendship of Our Generation gone wrong gone wrong oh my God I have no idea can you give me

a hint Colorado oh so um are you gonna do common

I'm not doing Columbine but that's that's the story that came to mind so yeah yeah that's exactly what I thought

of when I was talking about like man two people should definitely not have gotten together in any capacity without a

Columbine and yeah okay so for those that don't know this is combine is about Eric Harris and Dylan kleibel there were

two friends who became acquaintances in high school and in 1999 they ended up um injuring 24

people and killing 13 including later themselves so total death count was 15.

um and this is kind of the situation that kicked off Mass school shootings in

general I remember I'm sorry to interrupt but I was I was in Reno at

like a student council conference you know and it was like 500 like good kids you know

talking about how we get everybody to be involved and whatever and we had just had like three days of like you know

meeting new people and doing all these things and and um I remember getting on the bus to go

back to Las Vegas to home and someone telling us that it happened and it was just like such a stark contrast to what

I had just experienced of like this like you know all the all the kids trying to get everybody involved and excited and

then you know at the same time someone was killing people in a school where you are supposed to feel safe but you don't

need more obviously thank you [ __ ] You America so that that's actually why I thought it was like cow should as the

most impactful because there's certain things that happen in our youth where you're like I remember where I was it's like when people talk about where they

were when candy was shot anyways but that was kind of my first thought and it took me back to a particularly awful

story I remember reading about like years ago and I think it's still considered obscuring the pantheon

Pantheon of True Crime like I don't hear this story told very often it is well

let's get into it maybe you already know it I'm nervous I'm thinking about the toolbox Killers

Lawrence gross yes I know a little bit I feel like I don't know if that kind of makes

me want to throw up so I'm excited okay so you're yeah again you're a PhD in

True Crime so I'm not surprised um I do I do want to differentiate this from the toy box killer which sounds

delightful by comparison like you're forced to be locked in an FAO Schwartz before they kill you this is not bad

this is toolbox so that's not a thing though

with the FAO Schwarz why because they're bankrupt

this thing that'd be a weird way a weird a weird thing yeah

there might be that might have to be the reboot of those Saw movies

um like I said look I almost feel like there are some true crime stories that though they're incredibly interesting

compelling are just too much for mainstream consumption and yeah drug appeal

that's essentially this the toolbox Killers like I'm not going to go super

into the weeds and details on the gross stuff because it's just too gross so

loading that at the top totally and don't yeah I mean I feel like I I know some of the gross stuff

um I'm sure that you'll talk about some of it as well but it's gross I will go mildly into the ground it's like real

bad okay it's real real bad like I was thinking about like how certain situations have like and certain folks

within this genre have an IT Factor you know Bundy being considered normally good looking Gacy being in a clown

involved in politics BTK had a normal family these two are just garbage humans they

have none of that if you look up a picture of Lauren spitticker in particular he looks like Pennywise the Clown

it's terrifying like he's I'm gonna look it up in an incognito window so it's not like in my search history the method

call I should have been doing that this whole time yeah

you see it like his foreign

like it's just creepy creepy looking dude yeah let's get into our two main

characters and note the red flags along the way I'll start with what I'm gonna say is the main antagonist of the story

which is Lauren Spinnaker he actually died fairly recently he actually died in 2019

um so we will get to how that ended up happening but Lawrence was born in 1940 to a couple who gave him up to an

orphanage he was adopted as an infant and his family moved around quite a bit I don't have the years but I do know

over the course of 17 years he went from Pennsylvania to Florida to Ohio to California so setting up Roots was

obviously a challenge like if you're a kid growing up like that that's you you're gonna have like very shallow

human connections because you'll never have the opportunity to build deeper ones right or I mean it also depends on

who you are you know like like my husband if I was in the military and he moved around and like he has friends from every place

that he lived that he still talks to because his parents are making friends with everybody and his parents were like made it really made a mission of the

threatened to meet people yeah if it's if you as a parent understand that you have to make that like a point that your

kids are socialized then I'm sure it's different than if you're this guy this is only he got this so right uh once he

turned 17 he seemed like he kind of fell into a life of crime but there was still kind of cute 1950s crimes like he was

arrested for auto theft evading arrest and I mean this last one is less Dennis

the Menace uh there was a hit and run as well oh that's bad yeah that's we don't know if the person died or not but but

you know still I mean he got hit by a 1950s car he probably wasn't doing great

um he spent two years in reformed school and he kind of just drifted in and out of different facilities for various

different crimes until he was about 21 years old at 21 Lawrence's mental acuity

comes into play he is said to be manipulative and was

found to have an IQ of 138 do you know what that means Taylor I don't know what that means

yeah I didn't know what it meant either okay it's like my blood pressure like I don't know what that means just saying

diabolic yeah just am I gonna die or not for context the IQ classifications

there's like various versions of this but like just generally speaking 90 to 109 on an IQ test is average okay 120 to 129

is considered Superior 130 138 and above is considered very

Superior so like I said there's different scoring methodologies for this but just generally speaking a quote-unquote

genius is someone with an IQ of around 140 or so is that is that true like what

if you're a bad test taker or if you're a good test taker or how do they test you I I don't know how test taking or

your ability to be good at that I've never taken an IQ test I don't know if it's like if you need to know

something or is it just like how you logically reach conclusions to things right because I don't think they ask you

like who was president in 1912 I think it's like a Kaplan course to study for

it right I think it's I'm sorry I'm just I don't want to know how do you take an IQ test

I feel like this is test that IQ Mensa the equity test oohs when you can do in

five minutes who knows there's a free at qtest.net yeah I feel like you need to go into a

space with people like lab coats watching you do it for it to be like legit

um so Einstein was 160. yeah yeah so I was gonna yeah I was gonna bring that up

so for example again a genius is somebody with an IQ of around 140 or above Lawrence was a 138. I looked it up

Elon Musk was a 155 and like you said Einstein was once is a 160. he was

closer to Elon Musk than he was to riq for context Snoop Dogg is 147. seriously

yeah but I don't believe that about Elon Musk I think he made that up

I mean I don't know if you I want to see some receipts for Elon musk's I mean the guy you're Einstein IQ started three

companies and ran I mean kind of and then spun off the planet with his

ego I think it's just like not having any empathy anyway um continue I'm so sorry well anyway let's take a huge test later

well everybody unless they're bad or wildly different if one of us is really smart and one of us is not let's just

not share it exactly exactly it's gonna be the same we will not be sharing our IQs later I think I think if I had to

guess you're probably a 119 which is

just shy of superior it's very average and I think I'm

probably like I'm probably right next to that maybe like a 117 116. all right we'll take it we'll figure it out okay

report back maybe so I bring all this up because I mentioned that I think he's the main antagonist and I think being

basically a professional criminal criminal with that level of intelligence has to put you in a rare category based

on people you would normally interact with let's leave let's leave Lawrence there and move on to his partner in

crime Roy Norris so Roy was eight years Lawrence's Junior so there you go there's a little bit of that obvious

power imbalance in addition to the fact that was crazy smart and Roy wasn't there was

also the age Gap uh he ended up in foster homes quite a bit mostly due to his mom being a drug addict uh this guy

was kind of [ __ ] from birth it sounds like there's a lot of stories around his abuse and what people did to him and uh

he didn't have an easy life growing up but again like also you know I was

reading it I was also thinking like it's the 50s like how do you interpret that like isn't

this standard that your dad comes home and just beats the entire family like I don't right I mean I'm not saying it's

good but I'm saying like did he have it worse than a lot of people or was his particularly hard to gauge that I think

yeah totally one thing that was interesting was that at one point in his youth uh Roy did try to attempt suicide

oh yeah like he just strikes being as someone like a kid with no mentors or anyone to look up to

um I don't really see him as like an obvious deviant just yet like mostly just like a lost kid you know

I would say that changed the older he got uh he unlike Lawrence who was like

involved in stupid petty theft like stealing cars and [ __ ] Roy's dabbling in

the criminal underworld came about through sexual crimes that he was committing or trying to commit so around

the age of 21 uh he was caught trying to break into a woman's house for refusing

to let him in it sounded kind of like a date gone wrong for that he was arrested he was

diagnosed as having a schizoid personality disorder again not to harp on this too much but think about that on

the one hand you have Lawrence who is basically Beethoven levels of intelligence Beethoven I looked up was 135 to 140. on the other hand given

obviously mentally ill man in Roy who's diagnosis as schizoid Personality yeah

totally after Roy's release he attacks a female student in San Diego strikes from the

head and then beats her repeatedly so his escalation is ramping pretty quickly from trying to break into a woman's

house to like this level of aggression and violence still when he's arrested he goes to the

psych ward for mental illness which I don't know how I feel about this I don't know how mental illness or the criminal

justice system worked in the 1950s and 60s but this guy's crimes veered so heavily towards sexual

violence and they keep putting him in psych wards yeah is that a mental illness

yes probably in some way but also is very violent so she probably shouldn't be on other people right yeah I mean I

don't know I was I don't know I'm thinking well it's definitely abhorrent Behavior so

maybe that's a signal of Mental Illness but he's yeah definitely put him in jail he shouldn't be around others right yeah

definitely shouldn't be around other people staying on brand for Roy he is eventually released from that situation

and then he rapes a woman in Redondo Beach which is

actually reported to police and that'll come up again because that is a really

really critical moment and why everything else here happens that happens I will say this like

I am changing I'm not using the word rape very much deliberately in

this because I just don't want to say it like 300 times uh so just note that I'm

I don't know I don't get triggered by much but I did get kind of upset at like how many times this comes up over and

over again and I just don't want to do that to you or the listeners or myself again so I'm just not gonna

go into detail we can assume there was a lot of sexual crime yeah exactly exactly

so let's get into the overlap between these two deviants

so how do they come together so let's going back to Lawrence in 1974 Lawrence stole a stake again it's kind he's kind

of Dennis the Menace like what a stupid crime anyways so the grocery store

employee who was going way above and beyond uh confronted Lawrence and

Lawrence ended up stabbing the guy okay I've never heard you that let him take it take the stake like who cares who

cares yeah the guy lived but Lawrence was arrested obviously and he was sent to a prison in San Luis Obispo

all these places that I'm listing I'm like I have so many amazing memories of it is

so beautiful there Redondo Beach is one of my favorite places in the world and

it's just like you think about what was going on with these guys and it just tints everything you know this weird

shade and then going back to Roy's rape

accusation in Redondo Beach in 1976 he was arrested for that and then he also

landed in San Luis Obispo so now you have the two coming together right you have you have

the incredibly smart manipulative Lawrence the incredibly you know

mentally ill and sexually violent Roy coming together yeah I was I was thinking about this I

was like how do you compare this like what is it like with that kind of kids then when two people kind of come together I thought about like Michael

Jordan Scottie Pippen or jobs and was yeah I think that's kind of what this is and like yeah the opposite way I think

we're gonna change the world let's make it worse yeah or less invent computers

or let's be the best and yeah totally yeah so so the two hung out in like

seemingly different crowds Roy was more with like the hardened criminal types the biker types and Lawrence kind of

kept to himself and hung out with the older inmates not for any like it just seems like

that's just where he gravitated towards it wasn't because like he couldn't hang out apparently Lawrence would save Roy

multiple times from getting beaten up and jumped like he wasn't like soft in any way like he just didn't hang out with that crowd

regardless they bonded while they were in prison mostly because of this situation where Lawrence was saving

Royce from getting his ass kicked they bonded and decided to get together once they were released and when they bonded

over again it was just gross sexual stuff that don't need to talk about yeah

but that was basically it that's like they just like were like sharing fantasies with each other

Lawrence ends up getting released in 1978 and then he moves to Los Angeles and again given what I said about the

guy earlier like he's doing pretty well for himself he got like a really really good job he was making a thousand dollars a week

in 1978 which I can't do the conversion but that sounds like a billion dollars

in today's money I think I think you're right I think it's a billion dollars it's exactly a billion dollars are you doing the conversion yeah it's 1978 yeah

in 1978 money to today oh my God forty five hundred dollars

a week yeah that's so much money

yeah he's crushing it yeah [ __ ] yeah he was a skilled laborer uh he

socialized normally like people knew him so I didn't say any write any of this in

the outline but he would like donate to the Salvation Army he'd go buy food and give it out to the homeless

people in downtown L.A like he he was being a normal dude despite the fact that he looks like Pennywise Roy's

released a few months after this and he goes right back to being a piece of [ __ ] committing more sexual assaults while

living with his mother for whatever reason Lawrence writes to

Roy and the two mate plans to meet up and they did and this is where they

start putting together their plan to play out the scenarios they discussed while they were in jail together

they acted like this was like a startup like they started like pulling their

money together like it was that's why I brought like the Wozniak jobs things I was like they had this like light bulb

moment but it was just like so counter good like I don't

buying materials I'll get into this like they like right they're like

planning to do something like like a party or something fun but they're planning to commit crimes they ended up

converting eventually they they did the van life thing before van life was a thing oh my God yeah it was anyways

we'll we'll go into it yeah they ended up buying a van

obviously and I started Wonder like is this where the Trope comes from like did these guys actually invent that truth

I don't know but it had to have been close to the beginning of that right I mean how long have events even been

around totally that's funny so yeah let's let's get into what they ended up doing after they put together

this you know LLC of theirs I'm joking there was no LLC obviously so they

haven't been coming the road to that yeah exactly so they have their van they have a plan and they have each other's support they

start going through with this plan this all gets like I said super gratuitous and I just

don't want to say the word rape 300 times so I'm going to gloss over a lot except one particular murder I will go

into the details of well part of the details of I'm actually not going to go into details of that one

either that much but the overarching premise was the same they'd see a girl walking on the beach like it's just the

most like innocent safe place how many times I mean you've we've how many times have you you go to

Manhattan Beach you go to Redondo it's just beautiful and everybody's just having a good time in the sun it's like

the safest place you would hope to be and anyways that's what they would do the cereal walking always near the beach

or on the beach approach her tell her they have marijuana or beer and then they can give her a ride they adopt a

abduct her and they typically drive her up to the San Gabriel mountains where they do what they do and kill her there that's it that's their entire Mo do they

always kill them no no they didn't so there's several women or girls who would either get away

or they would release for whatever reason yeah it was it was a little bit uh it seems like just something got into

them with the ones that they ended up killing but none of them had good experiences like none of them were like they got away like not emotionally

scarred of course no no yeah we'll get into one of those women actually later

because she becomes really really relevant so the list that I'm gonna go off of are the ones that we know they

killed there's actually one more that they think they killed because there was pictures of her alive in the San Gabriel

mountains but they actually these guys never talked about that one so they don't know what happened to her so she's just always been missing

um one the first one was 16 year old Lynn Shaffer the second one was 18 year

old Andrea Joy Hall the third one third and fourth were uh Jackie Doris Gilliam

who's 15 and Jacqueline Leah lamp who was 13. they spent two days torturing those two

girls I didn't mention this but the reason they were called the toolbox Killers is because the back of the van

like I mentioned like I said I was going to talk about later was converted into like a workshop that also had a bet in

it and part of the torture method came from devices they kept in the toolbox

and like that comes up big time with Jackie and

Jacqueline um and it will come up again with the next one the next one was Shirley Lynette Ledford who was 16 when she was

abducted while hitchhiking home from a Halloween party again the hitchhiking thing the van it's just like so

I mean now hopefully we know a little bit better yeah you know but I feel like

then this is the story we hear a thousand times like a woman was hitchhiking got into a van and get

murdered it happened it seems like it happened all the time and maybe it happened one percent of the time but

yeah people were doing it all the time which is really crazy I think about that that was like oh I'll

just hitchhike home yeah for my Halloween party when I was so when I was living in Hill Country I

um would constantly see hitchhikers for whatever reason and there's a part of me Taylor that was

like just stop just stop like get the story like just figure out what is going on like get the story of what's

happening and you can get murdered on both sides picking someone up and being picked up I would be murdered I I I'm

definitely on that side of that equation Shirley is the one that I'll actually

talk about because it's I mean they're all bad but it's the worst one for context the audio recording of what

happened to her is now used by the FBI to desensitize agents

yeah no no yeah we're harping a lot on that audio recording it is

really really bad did you listen to it you can't listen to it you can't find it but there's transcripts of it that are

that are circulating and there's also like up 10 000 reports of people who actually have listened to it and what the outcomes of

them listening to it was which again like that audio recording is going to keep coming up over and over again because it had it had it sounds like

very very dramatic impacts on everybody who listened to it wow so

um the so like I said like like if you wanted to you can look up like you can't

look up the audio recording but you can look up the transcript of it I'll expand on one part of what was happening during

the recording that sounds horrible I think I know what the answer to this is Taylor you might actually know what this

is because you sort of are familiar with this with this crime do you know what an old crayon is

it's part of your Anatomy oh no okay so it's part of your elbow so it is

the it's this part I'm pointing nobody can see this because it's audio medium but it's an elbow put your elbow well

everybody put your elbows in the air so yeah so it is it is the bottom part it's the part that like is is

um hinged from the forearm that ties to the top right so obviously it's a place

where a lot of bone comes together a lot of cartilage comes together is it your funny bone

no your funny bones above that you're funny actually actually your funny bone the top part of your fun the your funny

bone is where the top part of your old Cranium actually connects to the upper arm okay I don't know why this makes you

want to throw up but just like talking about it is making me camera nauseous

aren't you glad we're doing this at any of your time Shirley's autopsy reveal that that part

of her Anatomy was basically sawdust my God so in the audio recording the

sound of a sledgehammer repeatedly hitting something can be heard there were 25 distinct sounds of that

happening with a ton of screaming and everything else that came with it and the assumption is that that's where that

injury came from it was one of a lot of injuries but

that's the bulk of what you would hear if you ever were able to hear the audio recording is this sounds oh God it's

like I'm like thinking about it okay it's so awful pause they recorded it

recorded it and kept it just the audio or the recorded video no no I mean this is 78 there's probably

no capacity for video recording in a van right so you know just audio no they're in the van yeah

it seems hard to wheel the sledgehammer in a van I mean they really I mean it's why you

never really want it you don't get in advance don't get Advance yeah totally 100 yeah that that detail is the only

one that I really am going to discuss because it was just it just shows how terrible and brutal it was later on Roy

himself would describe the tape by saying if you ever heard that tape there's just no possible way that you'd

not begin crying and trembling I doubt you could listen to more than 60 seconds of it there

proud of it oh my God yeah like you like it wasn't like a um oh man you can't can

you believe how crazy this was like what a wild Friday that was like you know he's kind of bragging about it yeah so thanks

one interesting note that might have contributed to why her death was particularly awful is it Lawrence she

was rejected by Lauren so she worked at some Diner that Lawrence would frequent and she asked around and she said no

and they actually they actually think that's also why she ended up getting in the van because she was like oh I know

this guy I see him all the time right so there was like a trust element there but she didn't know that he felt the way he

felt towards her like what do you want what was his intention was obviously yeah she didn't expect to get murdered

yeah you should be able to say no to people and not give not fear for your

safety yeah exactly so after Shirley's death and her body was discovered she

was the only one whose body was discovered by the way everybody else was um like lost the mountains Roy

he's a real social butterfly he rekindled a friendship with another guy he met in jail named Joseph Jackson

and Joseph seemed to have way more Humanity in him than Roy himself Roy went on to tell Joseph what he and

Lawrence had been up to she's like yeah Woody doesn't casually mention it like always do this weekend

it's just have you been cornered by someone who thinks what they're telling you is amazing and you can't get away from them

sure I'll tell you what so everything I can't think of a specific example but oh I I

know exactly what my example is every conference I go to there's some crypto

bro who shows up who's gonna revolutionize democracy through the blockchain and they just find you

and start telling you everything about nfts and crypto and blockchain you're

like your eyes are [ __ ] blazing over and they won't every every conference University across the board yeah

that's my health so please anybody crypto Bros

never talked to me about crypto I don't care like our aged out of it I think I actually hit that age where it's like I

don't need to learn anything more like I don't need web 3.0 like web 2 is good I

got it I'm I'm sorry hold it on that side so yeah anyways Joseph probably said they're just kind of nodding along

to how cool Roy's story was and then immediately went to the police good on

him he's the reason all this happened like there's a reason why like the downfall happened because the police had

no they these are all missing people for the most part except for the last one surely

and stupidly enough Roy gave such detail that police were able to triangulate him

just from what Joseph reiterated from that the stories that he told for example he mentioned that one time they

had maced a woman while trying to get her into their minivan and then Joseph recounted that exact

story verbatim and the police looked up there was a report saying yeah this woman showed up saying there was a

silver minivan there's two guys in it and they maced me and tried to drag me into it did Joseph get some sort of

presidential Medal of Honor yeah unfortunately Joseph Jackson's not

an easy name to Google yeah so the man good for him good for him that's great yeah like roybas like

we give him all the details that he needed to incriminate himself that story the one of the maze woman she her name

is Robin robek and she was she reported all this like I said to the police but

she couldn't identify the people at the time so the case kind of just went away after Joseph described what happened the

missing girls the abductions the police went back to Robin with photos of Roy and Lawrence and she immediately

identified them like he wasn't like just those two obviously it was like a photo lineup of like a dozen but she immediately picked out those two

wow police are actually doing really good work here so they're starting to survey Roy and they saw him dealing

marijuana which was a parole violation form that he was picked up on Lawrence was also picked up but he was more blunt

it was for the assault on Robin mm-hmm police searched their uh searched

Lawrence's apartment and Roy's bedroom in his mom's house and they find

basically what you would expect just tons of photos of victims of potential victims of random girls walking down the

the beach jewelry of the victims uh they also found that audio recording I

mentioned earlier they said they also found acidic material which apparently Lawrence intended on using on the next

victim so thank God that stopped oh my God yeah

uh Roy was having a pretty hard time with this he was having a hard time with being arrested he actually waved his

Miranda rights just to show how intelligent he is and then he ultimately

confessed to police his argument being mostly like hey it wasn't me it was Lawrence all the all

along you know it was like the the prisoner's dilemma story basically just rehashed in this situation which again

like I said I always kind of couched Lawrence as the antagonist but like he's not like Roy's not like some innocent bystander

to any of this stuff no I mean he was there and he didn't tell he didn't tell anyone exactly like the other guy did

exactly and uh Roy was ultimately given a ten thousand dollar bail whereas Lawrence was outright denied bill which

I don't even understand why Roy was given that option seems incredibly generous yeah

although I mean again going for conversion conversion rates it might have been unattainable amounts of money for him anyways

um Roy would eventually testify against Lawrence in return for the prosecution not seeking the death penalty obviously

um Roy ends up getting 45 years to life and then he became eligible for parole in 2010 but he actually

this is on later on in his prison life he didn't actually go to his parole hearing which deferred it out another 10

years by the time the next 10 years came he was dead so didn't really matter not that he would have gotten released

anyways right uh Lawrence is incredible he just keeps on criming

so he hired two inmates while he was in jail who to go kill Robin because

they're about to get released soon to prevent her from testifying so isn't that just what what Alec Murdoch did too

oh tried to kill someone from jail oh man it didn't it wasn't that part of

history that he tried to fire Hitman to kill someone who knows it was somebody it was

somebody else who tried to hire someone while in jail to kill the prosecution it was one

of the idiots that I covered it wasn't it wasn't the day Bell guy what was the other oh it was Scott Drew Peterson was

it oh oh yeah okay that's so weird that is not gonna work it never works

for our less listeners who are incarcerated there is you're constantly surveillance there are no Hitmen they're

not Nowhere Man um obviously he got caught for that he ended up going to trial for the murders

in 1981 um having short sort of pled guilty he he didn't reply when the judge asked him

if he pleads guilty or not so in that situation it's just deferred that you're pleading and not guilty and so that's

what the judge entered his defense obviously tried to exclude the audio recording of Shirley's death and the

judge actually told the jury because they would play this tape in court they told the jury for those of you who do not know what hell is like you will find

out like that is the level of insane that we're talking about apparently when the tape was played the

entire court Reuben observers in the courtroom were reduced to tears except for Lawrence and again I mentioned

the impact this tape has had on people as an aside one of the main investigators in the crime committed

suicide after this trial and he wrote a 10-page suicide note that specifically

referenced the tape and the murders as haunting him oh no give me murders how

many how many people do they go it would have been five well it's five that we know of because

they confess to it there's another there's another one where the girl is at

the dump site in the San Gabriel mountains with pictures of her there and they didn't confess to that one so like

we don't know what happened to this one but she's still missing got it Lawrence interestingly took the stand in

his own defense but it seems like that was mostly for his own entertainment value rather than any realistic hope of talking his way out of this he was

obviously found guilty and obviously sentenced to death Lawrence is just like when you talk he's

just a piece of work he continued being a pain in the ass from prison he was actually declared What's called the

vexatious litigant at one point which I love like that is someone who just will

not stop filing privileged lawsuits for no reason it's like there was one story

about how he filed up for this lawsuit because he was served like a broken cookie and he called that cruel and

unusual punishment like he was just really fun [ __ ] yeah being in the ass yeah so once you're labeled the

vexatious lit again you have to get permission from a judge or a lawyer to

actually submit any more litigation so like that's like his right to file complaints

was basically taken away from him because he was so annoying because he was so annoying like I said like he ended up dying in 2019 he was 79 years

old which is like a pretty ripe old age um and he was still on death row at the time Roy also died shortly thereafter he died

in 2020 he was 70 uh he would have been 71 or 72 at this

point seven eight year age Gap um and that's kind of it like these were

two guys who came together who the universe put together who in my mind I think that Lawrence would

have just been a normal dude probably like yeah his crimes weren't that bad until they met like he was just

and he had a clear job like he was doing normal [ __ ] but I don't know why can't I

brought the worst out but also the reason I placed him as the antagonist is because Roy kind of planted the seeds

and then Lawrence had the intellect to come completely run with it if it wasn't for

Lawrence Ray would have just been like running just finding women and hitting them over the head with a baseball bat

like you know like there'd be no like system if it wasn't for Lawrence's

abilities but right so like separately they might have done

other things but together that was really the thing yeah exactly exactly it's awful it's all around awful hey the

story I think again this is one of those ones that you just don't hear about very often because it's just so bad and I've

literally skipped over like 95 of the details of what happened to these people and uh there's a reason for it if you

want to read more read more but it's not going to make you feel good no it's gonna make you feel terrible oh my God

yeah those poor babies do I see a picture of the van not great it looks

like exactly what you think it would look like yeah yeah yuck

it sounds like also about some of the pictures I'm looking at are from like movies about it some like the 70s and

80s I guess um it does look very saw you know it

the these stories of what they would do when they got up to the San Gabriel mountains because I've been up I mean

you've been up there right like yeah it's not it's not that far from LA it's desolate it is desolate there's like

hundreds of little offshoot roads that you could go down that would take you places where nobody's ever gonna find

you yeah and it's just you with these two lunatics in a van that had its

entire back stripped out there's a bed put in there and it's turned into like a a workshop like it's just yeah it is

soft like it is yeah close to that universities you can get and some of the some of the [ __ ] they did was just like

yeah tools for like other things yes I know they did like fixing things no I meant

other things like like torturing people no no I mean but like also they're like oh I need a screwdriver and then like

would like use it even though they had just like murder someone with it they just take the pieces of hair then like

blood that's on it exactly and then like fix a chair yeah yeah I'm sure I mean

they seem handy enough to build this mobile kill van

that's terrible so so I you know going back to like the entire premise of like what goes on it I I think they tell you

this if you do rehab that like you're not supposed to date somebody else in rehab right yes because there's a

underlying component in your brain that's gonna maybe go backwards with each other yeah

and this is a little bit of that too like if you make buddies with somebody while you're incarcerated you maybe just

like you know what like leave that relationship where it is that while you're in jail and then move on with your life and do something different

like find other people go to the coffee shop go to the dog park and just like socialize with others I think like yeah

that's kind of the red flag here is like just there's no need to come back together like yeah just that part of

your life behind yeah yeah that part of life happened it must have been magical but we can leave that in San Luis

obispo's prison when it does happen I feel like that the moment when they're like oh you have all these terrible

thoughts too that was like the no turning back point you know they're like oh I found someone who's just like me in

yeah remind me of Leonard Lake in Charleston like it's just like garbage wrapped in skin just showing

it's just there's such trash and they bought over the things that nobody should Bond over

yeah totally So my aunt who will never listen to this one time told my mom a story and I don't

have the details but she said that in San Francisco in the 70s one of her friends was a gay man and he was killed

by someone who came over and just shot him and I think it was Charles ing yeah I know that story it was he was a

radio DJ or something and he put an ad in the paper and somebody just showed up and shot him and

left and that's even confess to that mm-hmm

wow that's crazy I know um wow well that's awful

yeah do you have any do you have any um ending banter that you want to go into

um thank you to everyone who's listening please give us reviews that's super

helpful I made an email address so I have Doom to failpod gmail.com if anybody wants to email us about anything

and we're going to work on maybe a newsletter just getting an out to more people is going to be really the thing

to to keep this going I think that's our next step yeah yeah and thank you for

taking point on that obviously my last two weeks have been chaotic two weeks ago I had no electricity for a week and

then last week I was on the road so thanks for taking point on that stuff yeah totally I'm glad you're back and

um yeah everybody watch watch wild the movie and there's some

toolbox clear movies maybe watch it maybe don't I'm not watching it yeah I might not do

it I like I like the Saw movies but I like them because they're like ridiculous and not 100 accurate in real

yeah like it didn't really happen yeah so um well thank you Taylor hopefully you

have a great weekend and thank you too and uh safe travels for work the next

week or two and yeah I guess I'll see you next week cool thanks all bye

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